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Long story short, I've ended up in a temporary teaching position until May. It's very exhausting work where I have to talk a lot and mark a lot of work.
I'm also ridiculously introverted. When I'm tired, socialising can make me feel like I'm going to cry, throw up or both. The stress of this new job is making me so tired that I don't want to talk to anyone and I find reading conversations online to be difficult.
Problem is, I'm not used to telling people to be quiet or go away. I have several autistic people who know I can't say no, so they'll talk forever to me about their new figures or new video games which I know nothing about. I planned to have a relaxing bath tonight, instead I'm sitting here crying because I told one of them I was too tired to read what they typed and they hit me with the "O...oh...oh okay...".
I feel fucking terrible. I want peace and I want people to leave me alone, but I also feel terrible for wanting to be a hermit and essentially shutting people out of my life. I'm sure other people here have/have experience of exhausting jobs, is it common to shut everyone off at the end of the day? How do you communicate to people that you just want space? I feel so bad and I just want peace of mind.
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You're clearly not cut out for teaching. Try going into a different sector, in which your calmness and attention to detail will be prized - like carpentry for instance.
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>introverted
>teacher
Why?
Anyways, just deal with it for three more months then find another job.
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Oh I'm not a teacher and I never will be. I'm normally a researcher which involves a lot of reading and writing and data analysis, all solitary activities that I'm good at. A local school was very, very stuck for a teacher in my field (as in I found out on the Thursday and I had to begin on the Monday) and I decided to help them out. It wasn't all selfless though since the pay will be pretty good and it's good for my resume.
It just might be tricky mentally surviving these months as I feel bad rejecting people, but I really really want people to leave me alone while I recover the energy from a day of teaching and marking. I want to stop feeling like a horrible person.
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