>Haven't fapped for like 2 years to test will power
>Have a mad urge to
>Know once I do it I'll probably not stop
You said your reason for doing was "to test will power". If you genuinely did have a masturbation problem before, then just find something else to fill your time, occupy yourself.
I can only imagine how thick and stringy your cum would be.
Hire a escort and see she'll let you finish on her face. record it for the internet. Make sure you edge plenty before the money shot.