I guess I don't know where else I can ask for advice but

>>16788748
That's a really comfy picture

Assuming my words will have any impact on you:

Don't

If you're posting on here for advice it means a part of you wants change. Speak to your doctor about antidepressants and/or psychotherapy. It's at least worth a shot if you were planning on killing yourself anyway.

> I'm a 19 years old neet who never finished high school.

You can get a GED if you work hard enough.

> I'm anti-social to the point of looking at people makes me angry or upset or sickly

Go to a doctor and get help.

>don't leave my room

If you're socially anxious go out at night when there are less people out.

I would continue but you need to see a doctor. It gets better, trust me. Just take the first step.

>>16788748
There's a phone number on the top of /r9k/'s page that you can call. Also, you should visit a psychologist.

>>16788774
When will this psychology meme end?

>>16788774
>There's a phone number on the top of /r9k/'s page that you can call
Or at least there used to be. Find something equivalent and go visit a psychologist. It sounds like you have both depression and anxiety. It's curable.

>>16788780
What's the meme? I was in OPs position, went to a psychologist issued by my university, was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. I've been to therapy for 3 years and I'm pretty much living a new life.

Don't listen to this guy, OP. He's not out to help you.

Are you in crisis? Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at +1 (800) 273-8255.

>>16788793
Yeah you're living a new life on 4chan kek

Likely story faggot

Psychology is a nonsense farce like religion

>>16788810
Religion and psychology might not be scientifically valid, but even if they're not true in themselves, they do prevent depression and suicides, among other things.

OP here.

I don't know how to get a doctor or psychotherapist without any insurance or income or anything like that.

>>16789004
Your County may offer free or fees on a sliding scale services. Call the county health dept and ask.

>>16788748

you sound like you're trying to get across that you've become numb.

you've given a bunch of metrics that would seem to indicate you find yourself a failure on multiple levels.

do you have any examples in your mind right now that would make your life even slightly more ideal?