>19, graduates high school in 3 months,male, never had a gf
>slept with a girl (no sex) on my birthday last week, next morning she said she'd rather bang my best friend than me.
>feel like I fail at being a human being
>want to kill myself again (not directly because I didn't score on my birthday)
hoooo boy, here we go again. tips, advice, anecdotes are welcome
Maybe she said that because she was upset you didn't make a move on her, if it was your birthday it was obviously intended to be a gift or something. You could try to make it up to her. Also don't think that.