I just turned 19 and I want to get it off my chest that I'm going to kill myself very soon
I know 4chan takes suicide very insincerely but this is the only properly anonymous place i know that also has a decent amount of traffic
I tried sex and letting go as a solution to constant unhappiness and it worked for a while but it's a major source or regret for me now (personally, and not for the other people thank god) and it's definitely done more damage to me than good
Then I tried alcohol and I severely misjudged a couple of situations and I think I alienated a few of my former friends
I'm meant to be starting at uni and the end of the month but it's a bridging course, not an undergraduate course, because I need to fix up the effects of my really negative high school experiences. But I tried another bridging course at another uni 3 times last year and I failed all three. And I'm really am not convinced that I can do it this time or ever.
Anyway my life is officially rock bottom mentally and socially as of Sunday the 6th Feb. and after 7 years of depression and negativity I'm convinced that it's really time to pack up
You're nineteen, dude. All nineteen-year-olds are either depressed, or stupid. You're depressed.
Academics aren't everything, everyone has regrettable sexual experiences when they're young, and everyone says/does dumb shit when they first start drinking. And everyone, just like you, thinks AT THE TIME that these are huge fucking problems. They aren't.
In a few years, you'll look back and it'll blow your mind that you were actually considering suicide over this stuff. Don't choose a permanent "solution" to a temporary problem.
If university really isn't for you, have you considered a trade school or something? Or maybe just work for a few years, make some money, and spend some time figuring out what you want to do? There's no rule that says you have to go to uni immediately after high school. That shit is stupid
As a former depressed 19 year old all I can say is that you gotta make life worth living.
I was down in the gutters and thought this was it, but something clicked in me and I started marveling at the wonder of the world. There's so much to learn and so much to do. Life isn't going to force you to do anything and will shit on you constantly, but you and only you have the power to make your life great.
We treat unnecessary whinging insincerely. Telling others to commit suicide is an easy way of insulting people which is why people say it.
Everybody has regrets over stupid shit by the way. You're nineteen, you're barely an adult in terms of emotional growth, stop lamenting over stupid shit.
You're 19 man, that's literally like 22% of your life.
You have another 78% of your life ahead of yourself and trust me it'll be much brighter than it is now.
For the sake of yourself and your loved ones, please don't do it.