am i cheating on my boyfriend if i have strong feelings for a NPC character in a video game, and married him too
When I first started playing Skyrim not long ago I was constantly scared for some reason and felt pretty lonely raiding and clearing dungeons by myself. Most of the time I just got my IRL boyfriend to talk to me on teamspeak while I do my Skyrim shit while he plays CS:GO. Benor was the cunt who challenged me to a fight, and after I won I got my 100 gold and after that he became my follower. I don't know, it was really nice having him around and I wasn't so lonely anymore, and it's handy having him around to carry my loot. I just came to really like him and he made me feel less lonely. I can't imagine playing Skyrim without him, he kinda just grew on me.
if my boyfriend found out the feelings I have for Paladin Danse he would break up with me. And I'm ok with that.
I think you're taking these online games too seriously, Anon. Try stepping back from your virtual existence of bits and bytes, and get more invested in a real world hobby. Try taking up carpentry - it's fun, challenging, and you end up making useful items for your home and to give to loved ones!