So I tried hanging myself with a belt recently. Now I have these marks all over my neck since it had holes in it. Before when I used a normal belt it just looks like I had lines around my collar and I just chalked it up to me scratching myself in my sleep.
The only thing I can do for the time being to hide it is wear turtle necks and wear bandannas around my neck at work (I work a blue collar job) What should I do to cover it up and make sure it doesn't permanently scar?
I can't seek medical attention right now, it would only make things worse. I've tried talking to my family and friends about it but if I tell them too much they might try to institutionalize me or they might not be able to handle it like my ex girlfriend did. She cheated on me because she thought I was weak and pathetic, she didn't even bother breaking up with me, she just said she didn't care anymore.
I'm not familiar with makeup so I don't want to look like a doofus. Are there any permanent preemptive solutions to prevent my neck from looking fucked up forever?
Make-up or you are fucked. That's it. It won't scar, but you will have brown marks from where you crushed blood vessels for a while. Only thing you can do is do cardio and eat well so it gets cleaned up over time.
Being institutionalised isn't the worst thing in the world. It's not about the help you get or any of that bullshit - it's about being in a situation where you are 100% absolved of any kind of responsibilities for a couple of months. It lets you un-burn-out yourself, and get your shit back on track.
Source: Britfag who was institutionalised for suicide attempt when he was 14.
I'm not that anon but I'll be your friend, op. You really, really should get help. Sometimes taking that step can feel like the end of the world, like it's the wrong decision, but it could be the best decision you've ever made.
Do you have kik? We can chat if you want? Or we can stay on here if you're more comfortable.
I have a skype and kik but prefer skype.
You can email me your contact info to me at email@example.com
If you're serious I'm really grateful.
Are you a girl at least? And why would you be interested in me anyway? Michigan isn't THAT far away y-you can message me if you're interested I guess.
But being institutionalized *can* be very helpful towards that whole "getting the help you need in a safe environment" thing. That's literally the point of it.
I was institutionalized at 17 and would recommend the experience to anyone in need of it.
Seriously, >>16780286 is right, get help OP.
>4 years clean of self-harm here
>I know the struggle but suicide and self-harm are not effective ways to deal with any of your problems
Eh, fuck it. I'm just gonna post it right here.
I'm not just a sad sack all the time. I think I'm a funny person sometimes and I have some interesting and funny stories to tell (jesus fucking christ I'm desperate)
I have a relatively interesting life. I can talk about my uncles crazy prison stories or about me walking around a foggy grave Christmas morning and how I saw some deer.
I have a lot to offer kind stranger pls.