>tfw I realize the only reason why I want human relationships is being fine with my ego
How should I feel?
More like mainly in the interpersonal/social field. I think all of my late depressing selfsteem breakdowns came together with feeling alone. I mean, for example, the only reason why I sometimes want a gf is because
a) I think I can get it
b) it ain't usual to be always single.
c) someone wanting/loving you means you're fine
Other than that, I rationally know it would be annoying for me to mantain a solid relationship. I wouldn't have as much time for myself and my other interests and shit