Sometimes I end up meeting strangers for sex and it's fun but then they leave and I feel sad. Is this what life is supposed to be?
aannnnnd that's why
let me guess you're a dude trying to pick up straight guys by posing as a woman?
the weird thing about the world is that straight guys like actual girls. here's an analogy; if I buy a lamborghini, I want an actual lamborghini, not a civic that's been modified to look like a lambo
On that analogy. If the civic thats been modified enough to actually look like a lambo is cheap enough plenty of men will glady have the looks and the reliability and gas mileage of the civic. Pretty shity analogy desu senpai.
If we're attracted to each other that seems fine. I'd want a "straight acting" guy though. The bigger question is how to find one. Have no idea.
What does it mean to "go for" anyone? I don't understand any of this. I'm not like constantly harassing straight guys like you seem to think. And the sexuality of a potential partner doesn't matter except when it comes to me. Straight guys have fucked me before so I kind of assume that's where I'll find the most success but who knows.
Well in regards to the straight guys fucking you, they were probably experimenting with bicuriosity. As for leaving they realized they either are ashamed or confused. As for straight acting gay men I'd imagine bdsm websites like fetlife would be interested in having a twink boytoy to play with.
okay here's a non-analogy. I'm a straight male that wants a woman with a vagina, that might ultimately be the mother of my children. in this scenario I don't care if you're a 10/10 smoking hot mtf, you simply don't have the "parts" to fulfill my biological desires, and if we were to start a relationship, at some point i'm going to have to disclose to friends and family that you're in fact a dude posing as a woman.
so i'll ask again, if you're a dude that likes dudes, why not go for gay guys? women will all tell you the best men are gay as fuck
also my analogy was good you just added your own 2 cents. my point was if i'm paying 250k for a lambo, I want a lambo, not to spend 250k on a civic that looks like a lambo
well theres plenty of black people that don't like being black, saying you'd like to be called white doesn't make it so
michael jackson was born and died a black man, despite his attempt to deceive people
You need to be true to yourself. If you have a y chromosome. You are a male. If you're attracted to manly men find one that wants a twink. But no one wants someone who mentally thinks they're something they're not.
You think they felt ashamed for sleeping with me? That's horrible. I feel so much worse now.
Maybe men aren't even worth all this. Fetlife here is dead, or I probably would have found some guys there already.
I guess? The hormones shrunk my testicles some. And someday I want SRS just can't afford it now.
I'm not a dude. I live my life as a woman. But again I'm not opposed to trying a relationship with a guy who identifies as gay.
I'm not trying to aggrivate you just trying to get you to see why you're having troubles. Would you want a manly woman who doesn't acknowledge she/he was born a woman? You're past is part of who you are and to accept it is the start of completing yourself.
So right now you are narrowing your dating pool extremely. Clearly you want something long term and not just fucking but a relationship. As a straight male I'd say no one in my family or friends can even see you. For most people that right there would be a deal breaker. So if you want a relationship you'll need to find a trap lover that has no friends and family or that identifies as bisexual. Seems counter inclusive to the manly person you were looking for.
It seems simpler to consider yourself an effeminate male that's gay for manly men. Won't need to get surgery and the men you talk to already know they're gay/bi but still enjoy the female form.
With enough time effort and money anything is possible.
Taylor, is that you? This is your friend.
If it is, you don't have to continue this. Your life hurts, but you can make it better. I care about you and want you to be happy.
You've been isolated for a long time, but you can turn it around today. And you know how.
If not Taylor, then sorry. I'd suggest looking on 4chan, mtf s are a rarity and are fairly desirable here. It's high risk high reward, but with how sad you seem to be, you can't afford lower reward.