How do I know?
How can I deal with this? Has anyone else been through this? I really need advice.
Also is it safe? Can it all just be in my head?
You try it out and see if you like it?
Sexuality is about what you are comfortable with and what you like. Dont let yourself be constrained by your friends or family, they only know an approximation of what is good/best for you, while you know the real thing.
Why do you need to deal with this? Whats wrong with that?