At around 26 or 27 years old, I got fed up with my life. I wasn't doing anything except playing video games all day and being a NEET. I had been doing this since my dad passed away after high school.
I signed up for college, found a place that was willing to accept me with generous scholarships. Now I'm in my last year of school.
But I'm starting to become depressed. I am 29 and I will be 30 soon.
What's bothering me is that whole "you'll become a wizard if you don't lose your virginity" thing. I feel ashamed about it. It's making me really depressed and anxious. I have zero social skills and I live with my mom. People tell me to lose it to a prostitute, but I don't have my own money or independence. It's not like I can go travel to Amsterdam.
How do I get my mind to shut the fuck up? What does it matter if I'm 30? It's just an internet meme. I need to get myself together first.
It's a minor thing that is a symptom of you having no life. Since you're comfortable with the latter it shouldn't really bother you.
If you do get yourself together you can have sex easily (30+ or not), and you will be able to fly to places like Amsterdam on a whim.
Also, I'm Indian (Sikh, but not religious) so my mom keeps talking about getting an arranged marriage.
But going straight to marriage and not dating or anything scares me. Also I hate going to poo in loo land, it smells there. I don't even speak the language.
it's just a reminder of not having achieved a goal yet.
Good for you for getting out of your NEETness, just keep up with that shit. If you want to meet a girl though, you have to apply yourself the same way you would with school. The general steps:
1. improve yourself (already doing it, good job, but keep at it always)
2. interact more with women, platonically and without ulterior motives - you *can* learn emotional intelligence if you apply logic to it, but exposure and practice helps
3. start trying to put yourself out there. Online dating can work.
4. Fail, keep trying. Eventually you'll figure it out.
Life's a journey bro. And if you do become a wizard you can impress the girls with your magic tricks.