Am I on the spectrum? I've always known something was wrong

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Am I on the spectrum?

I've always known something was wrong with me but I was never quite sure what, but now that I put the pieces together it's starting to sound a lot like what people autistic/asperger people describe.

1. Violent outbursts which involve a complete loss of rationality and self-abuse, usually hitting myself on the head or other parts of my body
2. Difficulty controlling and expressing emotions
>I laugh when people are very upset or angry with me, even though I really feel bad for them
>If someone tells me something very sad I'll have a hard time empathizing with them. I will empathize with them inside (i'm not sociopathic) but I don't know how to express it, I'll just repeat stuff I hear in movies when people console other people

3. I repeat words and phrases when people say them to myself, usually under my breath but sometimes people hear them and it's embarrassing as fuck

4. Extremely sensitive to sound as a kid, loud noises scared the fuck out of me. They scare me less now but it's still more jarring than I would say for the average person.

Like I said if you met me I would seem like a totally normal person albeit with some weird hobbies and interests.I had to learn a lot about not being an awkward fuck in school (mostly learned it from watching other people/movies/tv shows)

But sometimes these parts of me are exposed to my friends and it's so embarrassing, especially the outbursts.