So I was just cleaning up my room and I just came across this handmade birthday card from my ex-girlfriend at university.
I fucking loved that girl, like 'the one' kind of love, she will always be beautiful to me, I'll never forget looking into her eyes, the memory of her is burned into my fucking soul, I've never felt the same about someone, I never did before and I haven't since. I've moved on but it just isn't the same, I almost felt as if our souls were intertwined and honestly I feel like if our relationship hadn't gone south
Ultimately due to incredibly bad timing our relationship was a trainwreck, it was weirdly the best and worst 3 months of my life, so many horrible horrible things coincided with each other and we ended up just being awful to each other and breaking up. She moved on a month afterwards and she's still with the same guy.
Anyway, I'm just wondering what you guys think, I don't want validation for what I'm feeling, as I once did, I know how I feel and that bridge between us was burned three years ago. I just want to know what to do with the birthday card, it rekindled a fire in me I thought had gone, I hadn't realised it was there inside me, as soon as I saw it part of me wanted to burn it but part of me wanted to keep it forever. It's a handmade birthday card with a lot of personal value between us and honestly, It was the nicest, most heartfelt gift anyone's ever given me.
Should I burn it or should I throw it away? I cannot for the life of me decide.
Self bumping I MUST KNOW
frame it and put it on the wall
Burning stuff from an ex feels great
Just keep it stashed somewhere you will not come across anytime soon. The memory of being in love ofc does not compare to the love itself, but it is a wonderful treasured feeling that was real to you.
stick it somewhere. i always read the notes my ex gave me because it was a high school romance that ended amicably and we're good friends now that we're adults. they make me feel good.