Argh /adv/ I am so fucking confused and lost.
My boyfriend has been a gambling, drug and porn addict since age 16. He is now 26 and has dropped the gambling and drugs after we met at age 21, but still addicted to the porn to the point of spending upwards of 1k on porn in a week (basically his paycheck). He saw a therapist for 6 months and it didn't help. Our relationship is so badly burnt I just can't cope anymore. We haven't had sex in months and even when we try, his dick is soft. I get so hurt and put off that I just don't even want to go there. I've grown to fucking hate myself, I have put on 10 lbs in the last year because I am eating my emotions away and using comfort food to help me stay positive. I have started a training regime that will help me lose the weight but oh my god, I seriously just would like to fucking die that I got myself into this clusterfuck of a relationship.
Why don't I just leave? Because we basically fucked everyone and everything off to go live in another state before I knew how bad his addiction was. He is a great guy apart from this addiction. And the cherry on top is that he can get suicidal and depressed when I talk about leaving.
I have an appointment with a therapist next week to help me undo the damage this addiction has done to my self esteem and I have asked him to seek help too.
He has organized a romantic weekend away and I don't want to be anywhere near him. Although I still love him and I care about him, I don't want to do romantic stuff with him and his soft dick.
>Why don't I just leave?
Well, you're going to have to, if you ever want to be happy again. If he only saw one therapist for 6 months, and nothing changed, then he needs to find another until something works. He doesn't get to just quit and pretend that things are still fine.
>And the cherry on top is that he can get suicidal and depressed when I talk about leaving.
Don't talk about it, because that gives him the chance to use your emotions against you. Just do it. When he's not home, slowly start saving away your money and packing your shit up. If you can get family to help you out, by letting you send your stuff to them, even better.
>He has organized a romantic weekend away and I don't want to be anywhere near him. Although I still love him and I care about him, I don't want to do romantic stuff with him and his soft dick.
Tell him how you feel now, as opposed to flipping out on him during the trip, and simply don't go.
>fucked everyone and everything off to go live in another state
Surely you can rebuild those bridges if you try hard enough and blame him for everything.
>he can get suicidal and depressed when I talk about leaving
Not your problem.
>I don't want to be anywhere near him. >Although I still love him and I care about him
Only one of those can be right at a time. You're lying to yourself if you think otherwise.
Spend money.... on porn..? Notlikethis.gif I would say this is not good lol. I would try to start planning some sort of escape. (reconcile with family; save as much as money as you can so you can leave.
>1k on porn in a week
I know this isn't the intended point, but that's really a lot of money.
Like, if he quit (or even just limited himself to, say, $100/week), the two of you would be able to save enough to become financially independent inside of six years, with no change in your lifestyles except relative pornlessness.
Or, uh, apparently if you pick the right charities you can save a life for around $10k. The two of you could do that every three months if he could just keep it in his pants.
>he can get suicidal and depressed
>1k on porn in a week
>his dick is soft
>haven't had sex in months
> eating my emotions away
Literal degerate relationship. Leave the fuck.
> I don't want to do romantic stuff with him and his soft dick.
question for people in this thread, how can a psychotic, low responsibility junkie get a caring gf who stays for FIVE WHOLE YEARS, but i as a normal guy who studied hard and got a good job and my own place cant get anyone?
is physical attractiveness really that important?
you think that attractiveness can be measured or described along four axes: how hard somebody studied; if they have a good job; where they live; physical attractiveness.
you're stupid garbage.
>with the info available i should trump this guy at every turn
that you express that by proclaiming you're ugly and went to college tells us a lot more about you than you seem to realize. the things that it told me are that you're a dogshit dildo and that you like to eat scabs. fuck off