>no serious gf
>still a virgin (a gril blew me once it was ok)
>future looks ok starting to learn software engineering soon
>have like 1/2 good friends and another 3-4 semi
>felling down as fuck for about a month about not having a gf
i dont know what to do desu i keep trying to push my self to do things i dont really want to not think about it, i have allways had thought of killing my self but usually i try to do shit to make them go away, its looking pretty grim for me i really need something to help me forget
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>feeling cautiously optimistic with new semester
>qt girl in my philosophy class, I'll ask her out for coffee soon
>looking for someone to take a good picture of me (tfw Sartre minus cross-eyes) to use for friendsy or other dating app
>if all else fails, I'll just wait for the right person to come along (not "The One", just someone who I like and who likes me)
Don't lose hope, OP. And even if you are lonely, it'd be a pretty petty thing to throw your life away over. It would devastate your friends, family, and even people that barely knew you. Bertrand Russell nearly killed himself as a lonely adolescent but went on to become one of the greatest philosophers of all time. There was no way he could have known then that he would go on to do anything great, he just stuck it out.
The sad thing is that im not ugly ( i presume) im pretty smart and i dont got a self asteem problem
It just that i dont know how to strike a conversation with some one i dont know with out knowing what there in to
- read the Mystery Method
- go out, go to venues, even on your own
- get hobbies and activities, do sport, force yourself to do small talk at college/work/whatever to socialize more.
Good things in life don't fall from trees, OP.
- dont really enjoy reading but will try as last resort
-idk about that going out isnt a problem for me
-got shit ton of hobbies only problem they are mostly stuff you do alone (playing video games/piano)
-i try to but i allways get this feeling that this is not the real me
Social recluse for most of my life.
Depressed til 21/22 (made a pact i'd by done with it one way or the other by 22. a nice even number. Date passed, guessed I was living and told myself I'd never let myself be depressed again)
First kiss at 23
First sex at 24
First girlfriend at 26.
Just keep going. As long as you do, and as long as you keep trying, there's always a chance for it to get better.
If I ended my life at 22 I'd have missed out on a TON of amazing things.
I studied film this year but i have grown weary of it and i fear for my economical future (father is pretty rich i allready own a 700k house becuse of him) but i want to earn things by myself and that seems to be the most profitable job that i like