How do you develop a healthy sense of self-worth independent of other peoples' opinions when the only things that make you feel worthless and insecure is not being loved?
You don't. Humans are social creatures. I hate the retarded 21st century notion that we should all just be cavalier and suck it up, and be okay with being despised by everyone, and that if you can't live a life without any emotional support from other people you are an incomplete human and somehow emotionally underdeveloped.
What you need to do is have a small, close-knit support network.
Just don't be a fucking pussy bro.
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TAKE PRIDE IN YOUR RACE
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The matter is I DO have a very loving and supporting family and friends. The issue is they're all-female and I keep having the crippling dread that the male sex in its entirety would despise me if I venture out of this hugbox.
are you a boy or a grill? I'm assuming grill because that is something a grill would be more likely to be insecure about.
Either way, best thing to do would be venture out of the hugbox and have your anxiety relieved because they don't despise you, or have your anxiety confirmed, and then work on your personality.
I'm a guy. I've never had male friends, ever. I'm gay, too, and I just literally don't know how to act around guys who don't want to fuck me.
Girls don't seem to just tolerate defective men. They prefer them. It's like they know I'll never turn my back on them because men would instantly sense there's something wrong with me and rip me to shreds.
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I haven't been swimming in a public pool for years because I'm genuinely afraid to go to the men's locker room. I have no idea why 20-30 strange men who don't know me nor each other would just collectively agree to strangle me with my own towel, but they might.
You need therapy then. There's no shame in seeking help but this is beyond a neuroses and venturing into delusional territory.