How many Ativan do I need to take to kill myself? I'm

yeah, that will show them

Don't do it. There is still a lot more left you could do. What's the sense in ending it? There's some good movies coming out later this year.

>>16662968
There are*
Fuck mobile.

>>16662968
Literally more ativan than you or anyone you know has.

Mix in alcohol and opiates... maybe, you'll get somewhere. But it's certainly not a graceful way to go. Nor is it a sure thing.

You try and OD on ativan, chances are, you'll wake up in a week or so to find that you've completely destroyed your life and then all of the sudden the problems you have now will seem quite miniscule.

If you do honestly want to kill yourself, I suggest a firearm or a helium tank thing.

I mean, if you actually WANT to die, that's a permanent thing. And you're only going to do it once, so you might as well wait the day or two it'll take you to procure a proper exit strategy.

>>16662968
Find a tall building. An hero by meds is least succesfull and often leaves your body devastated

>>16662976
Ive looked online and seen that it can be lethal in actually fairly low doses, but of course no one wants to go into details. Also that way it wouldn't be suspicious as I already have it prescribed.

I don't have a car right now so I can't ask my husband to drive me to get other supplies to kill myself easily.

>>16662968
If you're funded, I say stick with it. If not, or not too well, try to transfer. Either way, don't kill yourself, especially with pills since the success rate on that is pretty low.

>>16662979
Well I've tried to kill myself by cutting major artries with a steak knife but I got caught and ended up in the hospital for weeks. I would like it to be inconspicuous.

>>16662985
You can't really transfer in PhD programs as far as I know. So I'm stuck with these people who terrify me so much that the last time I talked to one of them, I actually fucking pissed my pants.

>>16662993
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Come on, anon, please do not kill yourself over a bunch of mean asshole students. You won't be at this department forever, and for lack of a better reason, think about how scarred your husband (and other people who care about you) will be. Think about the person who has to find your body.
Just please don't do it. One anon to another. If you're able to become a phd student, you're clearly a smart, valuable individual. Have you tried talking to your professor? These other students are clearly stupid bullies.

A LOT.

I've tried.

>>16663000
That was my advisor I pissed myself in front of out of fear, though.

I would feel bad for some people, but I don't make almost any money and it would really be a financial relief on everyone.

>>16663002
How many mgs? With alcohol? I easily have 30 mgs here.

Anon, truth is, if your peers don't even think PTSD is real, then they're fucking idiots who you shouldn't even be looking for approval from.

You're a successful person -- you are working on your PhD. I see underlying issues here. The problem isn't that your peers are assholes, or at least not to the extent that you'd want to kill yourself.

I could tell you how to kill yourself, having a few attempts myself that would have been successful if not for untimely interruptions, but I see someone who probably has a bright future and has a juvenile understanding of why he/ she should kill themselves. Talk it out with someone and figure out exactly why you feel like this. You probably already know.

>>16663015
I'm on meds and see a therapist. I've slso been through multiple types of therapy. The only thing left really is ect. I can't take time off to get healthy even if I could get better.

>>16663021
You just need some peace of mind. You have any outlets?

https://youtu.be/J-p_0FDlpkw

>>16663044
Video games, I guess, but I've been binging on even old favorites and I feel nothing.

I just got hired to do some art and that can chill me out too, or it used to. Not anymore though I think.

>>16662968
If a PhD student is asking 4 chan how to kill themselves, then you have more issues than what you're originally dealing with.

I don't want to come off as a dick, but seriously dude, go seek professional counseling. Once you lay everything out on the table to someone then you can begin therapy and take it on one at a time. It is then you'll realize that life is actually an awesome thing. Fear is nothing but a construct.

Best of luck to you.

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>>16663802
I've been in therapy for years. I asked here because no one else will give me a straight answer die to the stigma of suicide.

I've been through cbt and emdr as well as traditional counseling. I just am tired of being alive.

Considering I can't really get away from my husband, I was just looking for honest answers on how to effectively kill myself. I need to do it before the new semester starts.

>>16662968
It's not you anon, your department sounds like a real douchebag-fest.

Could you complete your PhD in a different uni or at least do it overseas? You don't need to kill yourself to escape the cunts in your department.

>>16662968
CALL THIS NUMBER RIGHT NOW

>Are you in crisis? Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at +1 (800) 273-8255.

>>16664648

Don't hurt yourself. If your colleagues are so bad that they terrify you, just stay away from them. Even if it means dropping out of school or losing your job or calling student services about a hostile work environment - all of that is better than dying.

You're the worst phD student I've ever seen.
If you can't even calculate a lethal dose on your own you really should just take as many as you can find and do everyone a favor.

>>16663802

He isn't a phd student. He is just lying so that people will think he is a little less pathetic, which is hilarious considering he is asking for advice on how to kill himself.

C'mon anon, don't do it. Fuck those people for being assholes but they are not real friends. You just need some friends and it's gonna be alright. I'm up for playing some vidya with you if you want or something or we could start a d&d group with other fags from here, tabletop games with friends helped me when I was depressed. Anyway, I believe in you! You can make it!

>>16663106
Why are you sad OP ?

>>16662984
>I can't ask my husband to drive me to get other supplies to kill myself easily.

How the fuck would your husband feel about his (I'm assuming) wife committing suicide?

>>16662993
Sure you can.
What department are you in?