my stepfather used to hit me a lot when I was a kid.
Now I'm back home after 4 years of college while I'm looking for a job and I keep getting the feeling that if I stand up for myself too much that I'll get punched again.
Should I report him if he does? When I was a kid I threatened I would report him and he gave me a beating, so I don't know if it kind of stuck with me and I'm not seeing it clearly.
I wish I could do that, but like I said he's way bigger and I'm so weak. Plus get guilt because my mom always makes me feel like it's my fault and every time there's a big fight he pretends he's going to leave her because of me.
I can't wait, I'm sending job applications. It's probably going to take me 2 months after the job to actually do the moving.
I am considering cutting contact with them, yes. But it's too much of a step and I don't know if I'm ready.
I really don't. For the sake of my mom I sometimes keep quiet because of our so many fights when I was younger but sometimes I do lose my temper.
Going to the gym wouldn't do anything.
Well yea, but I'm still a tiny girl and he's so much taller. I say this because the few times I fought back I got thrown around the room so I don't think going to the gym would help that much.
reading through this post i can kind of see why.
Instead of disagreeing all the time, maybe you should accept that you're being a disagreeable little shit and part of the problem. Then, I bet you'd discover the majority of the conflicts disappear.