I'm going to end it. Is there any way I can hire someone to just shoot me? Or should I just head over to the local walmart, buy a shotgun, and do myself in?
If you've resolved to die, find something worth dying for.
There are causes in the world that need somebody who's ready to do it. Find one you believe in, and put your life on the line.
If you don't die? Congrats, you're a hero. It's win/win.