Vent, write letters you will never send, ask for advice. No contact fagging.
>>18250878
Abbie
You are a boring whore with a horrible personality.
All you have to offer is your loose pussy and you're not even that fun in bed for someone who is a massive slut who will fuck anyone who shows any type of interest.
I jerked off my cousin
Shat myself in BJJ, should I go back?
I've been doing BJJ for 2 years now and am trying to get my blue belt. Last week I agreed to spar with this 11 year old kid on his first lesson. Now I'm a 31 year old man, 6'0 and 135 lbs and to put it in perspective he comes up to my midsection in height and he tells me he's 60 lbs. So obviously I decide to go easy on him during sparring. During the 15 minutes neither of us got a tap out.
So next lesson I decide to go harder. I'm all attack and then suddenly he counters. I'm flat on my back and he's squeezing the life out of my neck with his legs. I decided to just try and lift up his legs since he's only 60 lbs but I couldn't budge them, turns out small and skinny white boy has disproportionally muscular legs that are probably bigger than mine and I'm serious. To make it worse he just grabbed one of my arms and was twisting it like crazy.
It was the most pain I've been in my BJJ career. I started loudly gagging and am tearing up. I really wanted to tap out but I just kept on thinking of how embarrassing tapping out to a 60 lbs kid would be and got knocked out instead. When I woke up, I discovered that I had shit myself. And yes, it was very noticeable (some of it went on the mat).
How in the hell am I supposed to go back now? I really want that blue belt but I don't want to be pitied by the class when going back. And if I move to another gym I'll lose all my white belt progress. Help!
>>18250863
This story is so good
just joke about it and take it like a champ. yeah it was embarassing but anso funny af.
>>18250879
1st
How are you still on your white belt if you've been doing it for two years? You'd think that by now you'd have a different color belt man.
2nd
You should've just tapped out man. If you don't wanna lose that progress you're gonna have to go back and face all that laughter. Cause that shit was comedy. No pun intended. Or just go to a new gym and fly through the belt tests since you have the xp just not the belt.
How do you convince your brain that it isn't in love with a fictional character?
As far a your brain's concerned, EVERYONE except you is a fictional character.
>>18250756
thats what fucks me on a daily basis
>>18250731
Tell it to quit being a fucking weeb.
How do I get my gf back?
Before I explain the situation I would like to ask that no one tell me to give up or that its impossible or to move on. I understand that the chances are unlikely to be in my favor but I still want to try.
So my gf and I were on a break since April 5. It was suppose to be two months. She felt that I was too dependent on her and I had mental issues from past experiences I refused to get help with. After the break started I decided that instead of trying to deal with it on my own like usual I would go to a therapist which has helped me out immensely. I plan to keep going and we're working on getting antidepressants to help medicate my issues. I also did a lot of thinking about our relationship and why it didnt work out, ended up typing out a whole 5 page paper still ongoing.
She called me yesterday saying that that was going to be the last time we talked and that I wasnt the type of person she wanted in her life. Of course I argued because its hard for me to accept that. We talked for around 3 hours on phone discussing things on how we've both been doing and I told her how shes been doing and how I've been doing well and a lot of the insight I've been having.
This kinda eased her away from the whole I dont want you in my life thing. When we ended things I asked her to be clear on what was happening between us and that if possible I would like to talk to her more clearly in person to work things out. She told me that its up in the air again and that she would think about talking in person and trying to fix things but its still uncertain.
I'd say I made progress in getting her to slightly change her decision. Of course, I am willing to accept defeat, but I still want to try.
>>18250281
And I also want to say that its not about being with her. I wouldnt mind just being her friend.
I love having her in my life and even if nothing romantic happens between us i wouldnt mind that.
>>18250281
>When we ended things
Ended the call*
>>18250281
>3 hours on phone discussing things
You meant you spent 3 hours begging. Nothing has changed fool
Greetings from /pol/
Its been a while since ive posted on /adv/. After a while on /pol/, i think i have become quite racist. My family points out racist things i say, but the things i say are based off of statistics. idk what to do because i dont know if i am becoming racist or not.
This is coming from a hispanic anon, so the whole situation is weirder because of that fact
pic unrelated
>>18250210
you sound like someone who is easily conviced. get away from echo chambers like /pol/.
>/pol/ stats
>not even once
People don't want you to think what isn't "socially acceptable"
There's nothing wrong with being racist. Even Darwin himself said niggers are inferior under developed sub-humans.
Knowing the truth is more important than being a sheep.
What's the benefit of getting married? You working your ass off to support a bunch of ungrateful brats and bitch wife who probably bored of you after a few years. Then in the end of the day, you're nothing but a fucking tool for other instead of living by all yourself, spending your hard earned money for yourself, taking no responsibility for other than yourself, do whatever the fuck you want as long it legal, no one will tell you what to do.
I'm 24 and I have a stable job with good income but I'm still alone, If I want to have sex I would just call for a prostitute.
>>18250049
Alright
>>18250051
It is a wise decision to do this? I'm okay with dying alone thoug
>>18250054
Probably not
Why am I so scared to lose my girlfriend who wronged me multiple times and doesn't respect my feelings like she use to
>>18249673
because you're a cuck.
>>18249673
Because your a cuck
cuckoldry
I am a guy and I just don't know how to express heterosexuality. Like what do men do to say to women "hey I am straight and not a murderer or rapist or kidnapper"
I feel very uncomfortable "coming onto" women because it feels kinda rapey.
I also ask for permission a lot out of respect. I will ask "do you want to go out with me?" Or "may I have your cell number?" Mostly because I feel that PUA tip of saying demands rather than asking is weird to me.
If some woman said "we are going out at 10pm" to me in a demanding tone, I would be put off.
Anyway, how does a heterosexual male show to a heterosexual female that he is heterosexual and would like to date her without it seeming creepy?
It's a problem with girls that they can't make decisions, so you have to make them for them.
No children would ever be born in this world if men were not persistent in their pursuit of sex and relationships with women, because women wouldn't seek it out.
They passively wait for you to make decisions, and then you they turn down your suggestions unless you happen to be able to read their thoughts.
That's how it works.
>>18248737
>its a problem with girls that they can't make decisions, so you have to mkae them for them.
we can, it just seems silly when a guy hits on us, we are interested in seeing where it coudl go, but then they expect us to basically seduce our selves for them.
>>18248740
How fun do you think it is to go to date with someone who is like "hey, impress me".
It's like a fucking job interview.
I just spent half an hour being fucked and having my pussy licked and I spent most of that time staring at the ceiling or at the wall if it was doggy style
Is sex really this boring? People talk about it like it's amazing but I've never been so bored in my life
You need your partner to be more intimate with you
>>18248117
How so? What do you mean by intimate?
>>18248113
You're asexual. Please remove yourself from the sexual dating scene.
lets make this a thing
just say the thing your most insecure about and then lets give each other advice
im insecure about my intelligence, drawing ability and body image
now are you man enough to talk about your own insecurities?
guess no one is.
>>18247071
I'm actually insecure about the same things as you.
>Intelligence
I consider myself to have good knowledge and general culture and I think I'm as smart as my friends but they are younger than I am and more succesful so this makes me think I'm stupid. I'm doing alright in college but it's because I don't have a job at the same time, unlike everyone else.
>My drawing ability
Most people say I draw pretty good but I see other people's drawings on the internet and I feel I'm way below average. I started working on my own cartoon style but I lost practice and now I need to start again.
>body image
I'm ridiculously un-photogenic. I look awful in every photo except 1 or 2 out of 100. I see myself mostly okay in the mirror, I don't see anything about my face to be out of the ordinary, but a lot and I mean A LOT of people make fun of me for what my face looks like. And I mean actually people going out of their way to make fun of my face. I'm nice and never make fun of people myself. I have really low self esteem because of this and I'm also very worried about having a mental image of myself that's better looking than I actually are, meaning I must be hideous. I want to either kill myself or take revenge on the world because of this because it's unbearable.
Female here.
Body image.
im really starting to get desperate for intimacy. im 19 khv and completely CLUELESS about everything when it comes to dating. i have no experience except for 1 embarrassing date. no girl ever held my hand, no girl ever hugged me except once actually like 7 years ago, no girl ever said to my face that she has feelings for me. No kiss on my cheek or mouth or anything. Fucking nothing. Now i know to some of you gifted fellas out there who got their first gf at like 13 and started having sex since at 16 might think that it's not a big deal but it actually really is. having that constant feeling of rejection and loneliness takes a really big toll on your confidence especially after you turn 18. i mean i used to think that being a virgin isn't a big deal but now its fucking up with my mind. girls can apparently sense that in guys that they haven't gotten laid which is a turn off for them and its only gonna get worse with time. to be honest i feel like im just never gonna find anyone. i have almost no friends, i have a not so good body despite going to the gym (5'8 135 pounds ~11% bf) im not funny even when i try. also my job temporarily cut my hours so i just stay home most of the time now doing absolutely nothing other than watching tv shows like a fucking NEET which drives me crazy. also before anyone starts telling to start online dating, do you really think that i will find a worthy parter on a shitty free hookup app? I come on /adv/ and just reading a few threads about relationships make me tear up since it reminds me how sad and lonely i am no matter how much i improve myself. i don't know im just dead inside i just wish this nightmare could end but i just know its gonna be a long one. did any of you guys used to be like me but eventually managed to find love? if so, how? please halp me
tl;dr: im lonely i want a gf
>>18246028
>tl;dr: im lonely i want a gf
yeah me too
>>18246060
i know dat feel, brother. Stay strong anon
>>18246028
Life won't always be this way. Hang in there. Don't give up.
This is going to come off as a humble-brag and I am sorry for that, but I had a date today that I thought wasn't going well (she seemed bored, I wasn't really doing my best conversing, the restaurant was too lively for our mood, it was too hot outside, etc) so I figured at the end I would just go for broke and try to kiss her. Well we not only kissed but she came back to my apartment and we had sex, and arranged to meet some time next week.
Was I just so attractive she was willing to overlook the bad date and fuck me, or is she just an awkward slut?
>>18253050
We have no idea without looking at you or her.
>>18253058
She's six inches shorter than me, Asian (but born and raised in US), works in finance, a few days older than me, kind of basic (likes top 40), is slim and takes care of herself but does have a little flab.
I'm white, have long wavy hair, blue eyes, average weight but some muscles, dress decently, work in television.
>>18253070
Maybe she just wanted to fuck? The questions you oughta be asking now are "is she relationship material," "do I want a relationship?"
Does anyone else here feel soulless?
Seems like everyone is fundamentally different than me these days. People strive for a better life, money, companionship, or whatever they think will bring them peace. I've had all of those things, and I've never felt better for very long before I began to feel like shit. Even drugs were a limited time band-aide against my existential angst and self-destruction.
I don't want anything anymore. Not really, anyway. Not enough to get out of bed and get it.
Does anyone else look at the world with glossy eyes and feel nothing? I wish I could go back to being awed. I wish I could go back to feeling like I had control. I wish I could go back and feel like I have a purpose.
But I know I can't. Nothing will ever go back to what it was, and what it is now has only progressed further into itself. Like entropy, something whole within me has turned more chaotic until it's not even recognizable anymore. I don't think I can put it back together.
>>18253014
This is because you have never felt love, and life feels pointless.
>>18253039
Not true at all.
>>18253014
>better life, money, companionship
aka. materialistic shit or basic needs. That's hardly different than your cat.
>I don't want anything anymore.
What did you actually want before besides simplistic crap? What were your goals and aspirations?
>I wish I could go back to feeling like I had control. I wish I could go back and feel like I have a purpose.
Why going back to such silly illusions? Embrace the absurdity of it all, faggot.
So I just alienated my friends. All of them. Not that half a dozen is some inexplicable amount, but I just can't help but wonder why I'm such a fucking retard. I was really good friends with all of them, and we were hanging out regularly. That is until I started lying about not feeling well/being busy in order not to hang out. I'm not going to say that I didn't want to hang out with them, because I really did...but for some reason I kept getting anxious about going out, and I started self-sabotaging my social life. I just finished erasing all of my friends phone numbers and deleted them off snapchat and left their discord servers...and I couldn't tell you why.
Nothing even happened to warrant this kind of response from me...like I wasn't even in a huge fight with them or anything. I just don't understand why I'm intentionally fucking everything up for myself. I also have an 8 page paper due in the morning and if I don't give it in I fail; along with 2 other classes, yet to be completely honest I don't evenoctober care. I know I should, but I just fucking don't and it's messing me up.
This kind of behavior has been getting progressively worse for me since high school, and I'm in college now. I feel like I'm so fucked, and I'm not particularly suicidal, but honestly...fuck it, I'm probably going to kill myself for the hell of it. I don't want to be the kid that constantly complains about how depressed he is because of 'x' or 'y' reasons, just like a million other people. It just seems like depression is such a common 'thing' now. I'm only fucking 19, but I feel as if at least a quarter of the people around me are fucking depressed, or anxious, or some other bullshit. I couldn't tell you why that is, and at this point I'm too tired to care.
If I'm already bullshitting about, I'll just add that I really regret not having healthier relationships with basically anyone. I was so shy about everything when I really didn't need to be, yet here I am, unable to find someone to connect with on an emotional level, and I just feel so stuck. I'm not some poor ugly idiot, in fact I was told by my friends and literal strangers to take up modeling, but I constantly see couples around me, and it's not like it makes me mad, but just makes me feel kinda fucked up. I don't think I'd ever be able to connect with any girl, because I'm such a mess inside. It's not too apparent in my writing, but I'm so beyond fucked up. I'm such a messed up person, and I even have the luxury to go to a therapist, yet I can't talk to her about any of my problems because I'd be put in handcuffs. It's so fucking frustrating when you know your brain is fucked up, and you can't tell anyone about it.
I don't feel misunderstood, because I guess it's my fault for being so withdrawn hhhhh ive ran out of things to talk about because im as interesting as a fucking brick hahaha, im going to bed
Is there some particular reasonthat comes to mind for you to be feeling stressed, ashamed and/or anxious?
Am fifteen, turning sixteen soon. I have a foot fetish im ashamed of. Like a lot of sadistic brat kids, my female third cousin sometimes tries to make me smell her feet cause its "funny" to her. She is only 7 so I am beyond ashamed and embarrassed that she gets her feet all dirty, and then smothers my face with her feet and forces me to lick and sniff them. Im afraid one day she'll tell my family to embarrass me and ill be screwed. What do I do? succumb to my 3rd cousin and be her footslave for my entire life, or try to overcome this urge?
>>18252985
Nigger are you retarded? Stop this immediately or you're going to be known as the pedo footfag for your entire life
>>18252985
you're gonna get a 30 day ban so buckle up.
there's a good episode of this anime GTO that deals with that. if you don't want to lick feet, dont do it. if you want to, go ahead i guess.
>>18252985
It's my belief that Artistic and Scientific needs replace the needs for anything sexual if you forfil certain conditions, those being: reading a book before going to bed, listening to music for at least 3 hours a day, growing some sort of plant indoors (maybe get a succulent), trying to go on a long walk of 5 miles or more once a week or so, and investing a portion of your time towards creating some sort of Art 30 minutes a day.
If you do this no appetite will be uncontrollable enough that you're dependent on it