Anime that had an abnormal effect on you, or you have an irrational reaction to?
Mine has to do with the latter half of Serial Experiments Lain. The explanation is long so I'll wait a few posts.
So we learn that
Arisu is seeing one of their school teachers in secret. She's only in 9th grade so already that's a little unnerving,but they left it comfortably vague at the outset of its mention.
Then later in episode
8, evil Lain watches Arisu touching herself to the thought of getting felt up by her teacher.By this time, for some reason, I was already greatly uncomfortable, the more and more I thought about that.
It isn't until much later that we find out
that Arisu grew up and married that school teacher. Which is an even more deeply intimate relationship than what they had established previously.
To this day I still don't know why that feels so profoundly disgusting. I've seen some unimaginably horrific shit in real life and online without batting an eye, logically it shouldn't affect me. But it did.
What it might be is, I just keep thinking of how fleeting and confusing being "in love" is when you're still young, and the whole
part where he tells her "Should you really be doing this type of thing when I'm your school teacher?" Makes me feel like he was cognizant of (and took advantage of) her confusion and desire for sexual contact. Sinister and manipulative
The Apocalypse Arc of Utena made me feel really uncomfortable, especially during episode thirty three. The subject matter itself isn't too bad but the way it's executed left an impression on me.
i went full manic depressive after finishing toradora. i didnt leave the house for a week
i remember my face hurting from crying so much